81.       ANITA

I had a wonderful time with you as editor
Schizophrenia has dulled my life
The same time work related issues
Became out of hand as my relationship
As subscribed by this honorarium.
The fact that we had an editorial board
Consisting of representative of all the Arms of Services
And other experts
And the fact that our sources
This was familiar with the arms industry
Supplied us material for publication
And the fact that they saw the final copy
And had to signed their approval
Did not safeguard us
From the intelligence community.
Who had some enquiries
As we tried to market
Products and their development
When the state cut spending.
I believe our guidelines was not written
And our sources guardians were out of date.
This all placed extra pressure and stress on me.
Thank you for being there for me.