74.            JUKKIE

I am glad to know you again
It once was years since we met again.
I will try to keep up my side of the bargain,
I whish I kept contact with all the family
But with the conditions in the past
It was not possible to keep contact.
But I did really need you support,
I know I was the odd one out
Not just because of schizophrenia
But my age and generation gap.
That I could not strengthen relationships
Yet all the family is important to me
I think of all of you at times.
I once made a list to contact you
But found we have grown distant
And I did not want to bother you
With all my personal problems.
It is more bearable for me to give
Than just to receive.
But know I think of you.